Tonight I was feeling a little low. My son decided to stay until New Years at his Dad’s, leaving me, well, alone. I wasn’t prepared and I’ll admit, felt sorry for myself.
I decided to take a walk to clear the air since I’ve started walking since yesterday and wanted to keep it up. (don’t wanna break this LONG ongoing habit here!)
It was much colder than anticipated, so I grabbed my warmest coat, a fluffy toque, and head out into the icy dusk.
Walking cautiously, the ice crystals underfoot kept my speed to a careful roar. Puddles were frozen into a million diamond shaped cuts, with light bouncing from the overhead lampposts lining the street.
Ice is pretty.
Dunno what happened, but when I finally looked up towards our little town, I saw the glow of Christmas lights gleaming from a distance and instantly felt… joy. My heart rose, and started singing a Christmas carol to myself while snapping picture after picture from iPhone #1.
iPhone #1 comes with a story of course. In a nutshell…
I lost #1 in Nashville and bought #2 upgrade when I got home. Then #1 arrived in the mail. I put #1 aside and enjoyed my #2. But yesterday, I left #2 at the bank (outside) and when I returned, well… let’s just say I had to dig out my #1 downgrade today. Boo. Grateful I hung onto it though!
Some people get by with 1 iPhone. And then there are those that just need two… heh.
Anyway, I couldn’t wait to get home, turn on my own Christmas lights, light the fireplace and get cozy with my cat and just ‘feel’ full, even by ourselves.
It’s been a different Christmas. I’m still transitioning, trying to find where I actually belong and with whom. I’m still not sure and for the most part, feel a little disjointed. It’s hard to explain, but I’m gathering this is a completely normal transition when you go from feeling full to empty in one fell swoop. How can your heart possibly keep up with an abrupt switch in life?
If you’re missing someone this Christmas, THIS post may be for you.
As for me now, it’s all good. My lovely little home is warm, fully lit with festive lights I’m so grateful I wasn’t in a hurry to take down yet, and I have all I need. Even when on my own.
Perhaps it’s just mindset after all. Perhaps in our ever changing world, we’re just suppose to roll with the punches we’re dealt with, and get busy, changing things that we don’t like, flipping them into something we do. Hmmm…
All I can say is, I’m happy to know all my mindset seemed to need today was something as simple as an evening walk and pretty lights. And an iPhone.
Oh goodness.. I hope this doesn’t mean I’d better buy a 3rd!
How are you all doing? Has this been a good Christmas for you?
What cheers you up when you’re a little off?
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