My mom.

Today,  I’m honoring my best friend and biggest fan, my mom.

Last nite, Tuesday, March 30th at 9pm, my mom collapsed while grocery shopping. And she never woke up.

God took her very suddenly, just like He did with my Dad years ago. So I go into this new phase knowing, this was indeed planned.

My mom was one sweet gal. She showed the masses what true optimism was. She was artistic, loved life, loved her family beyond measure, and her faith her highest ranking hobby. Her hugs were long, and it pained her when you left her sight. When you left her place, she always went outside and stood by the road waving until you were completely out of her line of vision. Without fail. It was always hard to leave her and her place. She just never seemed to get her fill of you. She loved her family and was the finest example of what a parent could be.

Last night at the hospital, I actually smiled through my tears as I held onto her for the last time. I was holding her leg through the soft flannel sheets because I wanted to remember her warmth. My playful thoughts were, “Mom, you stinker! What have you gone and done now?!?” My most inner thoughts were, she was finally reunited with my Dad, whom she desperately missed every single minute he was gone. They simply were a pair that belonged together. And now they are.

My son was with me the entire time. This is his first round of this type of loss and I’m so extremely proud of him!

Yesterday had me feeling like it was a day to celebrate. Most certainly shock has taken over, but more than that, I was able to see over and beyond the fog, that THIS is where she needs to be. It was time. Even without warning for those that loved her.

How I feel today? Hour by hour. It’s all one can do.

It’s ok. It will be ok once we figure out the new norm. For now, I’m simply clinging to the thought that she’s no longer in pain from that back of hers, she doesn’t have to remember those silly meds nor does she have to wear hearing aids that never worked to her liking anyway.

And she’s in the most ultimate place ever. WHAT A DAY that must be! I can’t even imagine.

Between the tears that will no doubt spill, I wear a celebration hat for my Mom. Missing her desperately will come easy. So I’ll continue to attempt to turn my thoughts to what SHE must be living in right now.

How I wish I could pick up that phone and ask her what her new pad is like. 🙂 For now, I’ll just have to wing it hour by hour and know she’s being cared for by The Ultimate. Lucky gal.

See you soon, Mom. And Dad. My thoughts are with both of you today.

🙂 xoxo

I’d heard this song over the last 2 days on the radio, so this popped into my mind right away. It evolkes memories of my youth and just somehow ‘fit’.

A lovely song suggested by a comment. So true. Thank-you!

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209 thoughts on “My mom.

  1. Sorry to hear about your Mom passing. I know it would be very hard for me. Atleast you’re being positive. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.

  2. So sorry to hear about your Mom’s passing. Yet so glad to hear that you are a believer and know that she will have eternal life. God Bless You!

  3. (((hugs))) to you. What a great perspective you have and what a great tribute to your Mom. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this time and you celebrate and grieve. May God’s peace, comfort, and joy be with all of you.

  4. Donna,

    I am sorry to hear about your loss. I will keep you and your family in my prayers and look forward to the day we can celebrate with your parents.


  5. So sorry to hear about your mom. What great strength you have. I had chills just reading this. You and your family will be in my prayers during this tough time.

  6. I’m so sorry to hear of your Mom’s passing , she was obviously a wonderful person you were lucky to call Mother , she raised a lovely and balanced woman to be handling this so well .

  7. What beautiful, amazing words to honor your mother! My thoughts are with you. Thanks for sharing this and being a great example to all who have lost a loved one. I am sure you mom is proud of your attitude towards this sudden shock. I’m sure she is loving her new pad and how happy your parents must be to be together again. Sending prayers and love your way!

  8. I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ll keep you and your family in my prayers. I’m glad to see how well you are taking it. Stay positive, that’s what she would want for you. Celebrate her life.
    All your blog followers are here to listen whenever you need to vent.

  9. Donna, I know you will miss your mom terribly, but I believe she and your dad are watching over your every move. 🙂 They are with you in your heart.
    I hope your son can deal with this loss, as I’m sure he loved your mom dearly.
    We in blog land are thinking of you and keeping your entire family in our thoughts and prayers.
    May God bless you and your family.

  10. I am so sorry to hear about your mom’s passing. What a reassurance to know that your mom is in heaven! The hope that comes with faith in God is amazing.

    May you know the peace that passes all understanding now, like never before.


  11. I’m so sorry for your loss. Your Mom sounds just like my grandma, and in fact your faith in the Lord and your eternal optimism brought me to tears. How strong of you to see through the sadness and embrace the good. I know your Mom is feeling very loved right now, she has a most wonderful daughter. God Bless and take care.

  12. May the peace and love of God surround you and your son at this time. Knowing that your parents are together with God is awesome. One day you will meet again, and what a wonderful reunion that will be. You were truly blessed to have a wonderful, loving, caring mom.

    Hugs ~ FlowerLady

  13. Oh dear, I am so, so sorry for your loss. I love your optimism and joy in knowing that she is HOME. Praying for you through the inevitable heartbreaking sadness, just the same. And for your sweet son.


  14. Oh, Donna… God Bless you as you and your family move through this. My mom is my best friend, too, as they should be. Your Mom is actually MORE with you now. She knows you better now. She loves you in a more pure way now. It’s but a short separation, and you know you’ll be together in Eternity! Praying comfort for you…

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