Can you handle two deep thinking posts in a row? I usually like to save these for Mondays for some reason. But.. ah well. Lots to say this week I guess!
But may I just say how incredibly grateful I am that you received my last post’s ‘joyful’ news so well? Totally beside myself! I rather expected crickets. You thrilled me once again! Thank-you for throwing all that virtual love my way. I am positively beaming!
Disclaimer: this post was written last week. I’d like to think I may have written it a little more upbeat today but this is where my heart was at the time. So here we go!
Ok! So I’d like to confess something.
I lost my DIY mojo. It’s been lost for quite some time. Have you noticed?
I’m not even sure where it went. Perhaps it was because I just made myself too busy with everything going on.
I still struggle with balance in a big way. Attempting to morph a dayjob into a blogging career while feeling guilty for not writing your ebooks while still trying to be a good mom tests you in more ways than you’ll ever know.
Plus, when your blog grows, so do your administrative duties.
More online time = less creating time.
More creating time = less online time.
What’s a blogger to do?
Well, this blogger’s head hurt because she couldn’t get online one day (glitchy wireless), so she wandered to the sunlit patio, sat on a pallet sofa with no cushion (got moldy over winter – forgot to bring it inside. oops!) and decided this was no way to spend summer. So she pulled a few ideas together to maybe make the patio truly her.
I’m so grateful to have this amazing home and all that it does for us. I’m thankful EVERY day for it. It takes good care of us. It really is the perfect size, has an amazing backyard, and it would be the perfect place to retire in. I really never HAVE to move again.
But it still needs funky junking up in a big way. I need to morph it out of the land of typical suburbia and make every square inch feel like me before I can truly claim to want to be here forever. And I have a long way to go.
Some days I want to forgetaboutit and look at cottages with a little barn, a slightly bigger piece of yard with a little creek out back in the country. Then other times I think I’m here because I’m suppose to be here.
Can I morph typical doors into must haves everyone will want to try? Make the window trim look heritage? Add charm to the walls with some additional woodwork in an effort to remove a sea of drywall? Myself?! Without a whole lotta cost involved?
What’s before me is really a DIYer’s dream. A perfectly sound home where toilets are not about to come crashing through the floor. Everything is safe and sound. All that’s left is to figure out how to continue to make it me.
It’s a process. Do you spend your money and efforts where you are, in an effort to be in love with it, or do you give up the fight and save up your funds for the next place, which has you continuing to not love where you currently are?
I don’t really have the answer to that. But one thing I do know for sure is, if I continue tinkering on smaller projects, I may be able to learn enough to handle bigger things. But I won’t EVER learn the bigger things if I don’t tinker on the smaller things. And if I ever move again, I will need to know the bigger things unless I cheat and hire out help for every. little. thing. $ouch$
Of course! I’m still in learning mode. I need to learn more before ever contemplating on moving! Got it. Why not learn on a house that is patient and kind to me? That doesn’t have it’s hand out, screaming “Tackle this floor or you shall never flush a toilet again!”
No heckling. No taunting. Just silence. Waiting for my DIY mojo to return.
So, I hereby vow to start one indoor project AND one outdoor project! (indoor yet to be determined)
The outdoor project: my patio.
I need to create a new low cost cushion from scratch, and build another seating area.
A coffee table is needed.
Flowering flowers, where are you? More more to come!
Cool lighting… yes! I love to read out there on a warm summer evening. I need lights.
That floor… it’s so vinyl. Whatever can I do to make it cooler? I need to dream something up.
Railings… you are safe and sound but maybe a little too much. Where’s your edge?
Roof – I have ideas for you too but that involves a real builder and DIY materials. And money.
Who knows… if I tinker just enough, maybe I won’t desire to pine for something else. Hmm…
Do you love where you live?
What would it take?