I kinda feel like writing a heart-to-heart today.
There have been changes in my life that are making me feel uneasy… but for all the right reasons.
Change is what I wanted! Yet it’s a challenge to feel ‘ok’ with it and just go with the flow. It’s unsettling. It breaks routine. It takes more time. And makes me over-think even more than I use to!
Are you an over-thinker too? Goodness.
Anyway, I’ve been encouraging myself to keep pushing forward trying new things. From a pottery class to volunteer dog walking to getting inspired through church services to an epic writing class that is having me tread cautiously into scary unknown zones… it’s all such a process.
I’ve also been hitting the bike trail every chance I get when it isn’t storming outdoors. They are slowing down due to the weather, so I’m already making other plans to keep the exercise (and more) moving forward… more on THAT new one soon! Gulp.
So anyway, this one fine late afternoon, the weather indeed cooperated. The sky was clear of rain and the sun was out casting the perfect golden hour glow. So I bolted out there with my bike and camera and this post was the gorgeous result.
And happened to become the perfect bike ride visual to emulate my current story…
Life had been coasting along. I felt normal, safe, or as I called it, builder-grade beige in THIS post.
Just like this picture, this is generally the beauty that has become my everyday-normal while I fly down the forest trails on bike on a daily basis. How fortunate am I?
I do attempt to bike each late afternoon or evening, however rain storms of late have held me somewhat hostage indoors. So when there’s a parting of clouds in the sky, I dash out! No matter how chilly it is.
I really do appreciate these amazing surroundings. That’s why I keep returning to nature. They take me away from ‘stuff’ and place me in a magical world where the only thing to think about is what is before me.
The honking sounds from geese with flapping feathers in the sky, the crunch of gravel beneath the bike tires as I spin along the forest trails, the wind whisping past my ears…
It’s cooler now, so I was wearing yoga pants topped with baggy but cozy sweats, a heavy jacket and even gloves! And had a face mask at the ready in case the wind nipped at my face a little too harshly.
I must have been quite ‘the sight.’ I’d like to pick up some bike gear one day to look more ‘the part.’ Hmm… perhaps I should write that down on my dream list…
Anyway, sometimes I muse that I really ought to hit more new trails, however there’s comfort in the same ‘ol. You don’t have to make any new effort to enjoy. You just get on the bike and go.
However, as the sun dipped lower in the sky, my surroundings became much more dramatic. The deep hushed tones of dusk against the vibrancy of golden hour painted such a stunning picture!
Bonus… moving the camera around created different effects.
All captivating, just slightly different.
They don’t call it golden hour for nothing! At this time of evening when the sun is at that perfect position, it casts a much warmer glow, vibrantly illuminating every fall colour available to it!
So while some areas are in shade wrapping things up for the night, others are magically highlighted as a last hurrah of the day.
Nature’s Christmas tree lights!
So how is this golden moment mirroring my current life?
Listing the changes I desired to have in life caught me off guard. I ended up with 8 pages of them. Who knew I was so starved for things, but so fearful of them I allowed them to push me away?
That’s crazy, isn’t it? If we want a new ‘thing’ for the house, we generally just go out and buy it.
It isn’t that effortless when you are chasing your deep-embedded dreams.
Deepest dream desires place you in a super vulnerable spot, and your what Kim calls ‘monkey brain’ taunts you with things like, ‘That’s impossible! You don’t deserve that.”, etc.
You basically talk yourself out of it so you stay comfortable right where you are.
Resulting, in pining for more.
So I’m currently working on replacing those negative thoughts with “You can have that! Look, list the steps, that’s how it’s done. Then put those actions into play. The steps are easy!”
The hardest part is accepting that you can do and deserve those things.
So retraining how we think becomes paramount.
Did you read my ‘thinking positive post?’ HERE? Give that a read now if you haven’t yet, because it all blends in with what I’m about to say.
Big bold steps that will shake up the foundation you walk on take courage.
In order to have courage, it’s a must to believe you are capable.
In order to become capable, the positive stuff inside you must take over. Your insides, or things you say about yourself become paramount for this to happen. Your self-speak must be positive.
So if you are babbling incessantly all day long’ I can’t keep up, I don’t have time, blah blah blah’, that’s what will happen.
Turn that around with, “I can keep up if I segregate my day… I have time between 2-4…” it’s quite frankly GOING to happen.
See the dramatic difference affirmative self- talk makes?
It’s life-changing. Literally life IS changing for the better every moment you move forward with your day.
This beautiful evening golden-hour bike ride emulated what I have been feeling lately perfectly.
The standard schmandard is still present and beautiful.
However, start making those small changes, and magic happens. A newness washes over your life, opening doors you never imagined could become unlocked.
I personally know that change is imperative in my life in order to feel nature’s dopamine kick in. More life experiences build up a larger card file inside my head, and the more new I start to do, the more new will become my new lifestyle. It’s contagious!
Growing never ends does it? I suppose there are those that are perfectly fine with status quo, and perhaps they fought long and hard to be in that position. I get it. I’ve gratefully reached it as well.
However my own inner gut says, it’s ok to push further. In fact, vital. It’s what keeps me moving forward.
Are you stuck? Does this ‘talk of new’ have you scratching your head?
With positive thoughts and a firm, “I deserve this!”, I challenge you to flood a page with your own dreams. Try getting them down on paper. Nothing is too big nor too small. Go full throttle. It’s pretty wild what comes out of you if you allow it!
Then… yeah. Overwhelming isn’t it? But now YOU know what to run towards!
With the hardest part being, which golden hour moment of yours will be first?
And other mood boosting bike rides HERE