Have you ever considered yourself an artist? I mean, for real.
Of course, you are.
It would seem you are somewhat restricted for studio space. Would you ever consider a small cottage home on some land with a big pole barn as a studio space, instead of a big home with a little studio area?
It would seem, if you are to grow in your art it needs to take priority. You have a great blog, but I think with the right set up, you could even be selling things from a studio space.
It just occurs to me more and more these days that the Lord gives us gifts and they are often not developed or realized to their full potential because we allow other things to weigh us down and consume our time and energy.
See if you could imagine yourself on a piece of property outside of town with a little house and a big barn. Even selling from the barn your work.
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This lovely email came at such an uncanny time. I was on my bike and stopped for a water break, when I opened my email and read this. Honestly, my eyes began to sting, because this has been on my heart ever since landing on this doorstep 10 very long years ago.
But most recently, a LOT.
Allow me to explain…
I landed here because it’s what I could afford. The view out back sold me, even though the place needed a LOT of work.
Over time, I had a lot of help with that work, which also educated me and was a big part in the starting of Funky Junk Interiors. You can read my story HERE.
So where are we today? My gut has been telling me to clear out. Just clear out the dead weight. Clear clear clear. So over the last year I have been focusing on selling big stuff I can’t move myself I no longer need / want, and putting smaller stuff on the curb.
And remember my Finish The House post? That too.
And now that personal chaos has left the building, I have time to finish things. And it’s working!
However, what’s transpiring mentally for me is rather confusing. Is moving really in the bigger picture, or should I dump the funds into this place to make it all it can be?
I suppose what answers that question is… do I have any limitations here?
Yes, I do.
For one, our entire back yard is a septic field so I can’t build or put weight on it. So… no big shop for me nor selling from home nor workshop opportunities. Big minus.
I miss living in a more rustic natural setting. (I had that dream country the home before this one, which I had to let go when I divorced.)
Vinyl siding doesn’t speak to me. Wood that needs staining or painting, now we’re talkin’…
At the same time, I’m 55. I need to think what my own personal limitations will be moving forward too. This house is sound and not a money pit unless I chose to spend money on it. That is HUGE. I am not a professional builder (yet?) so I’d have to hire out major fix up jobs.
I’ve also worked with all scenarios before:
Shop off property – I use to have a storefront so I was always there, not at home. The way I work today, that would not work as what I do for work IS play these days. I need it all in one spot.
Shop on property – I loved working from home, but was always in the shop, not inside my house. Lots of running back and forth between house and shop, but at least it wasn’t far to go and did free up house space. This setup was pretty sweet, however it was important to have the workspace super homey so you didn’t feel like you were leaving home. I did this one to the hilt. It became my 2nd home. I quite enjoy the thought of all my gear in a barn…
Shop inside house – everything is under one roof now, which is so much easier. However it is space tight…
My biggest gut-thought always hits in the same area. I have been visioning a little cottage home somewhere with a barn out back in a more natural setting. My ‘home’ will never be suburbia. I’m a farmer’s daughter through and through.
My therapist encouraged me to NOT feel guilt about leaving my current home, which I do. So I’m going to try and let that go and allow things sway where they may.
I’ve been trying to encourage myself with staying put and being happy with what is. But it’s hard when you know deeeeeeep down that where you are just isn’t you through and through. My little river front cabin getaway with all the rustic wood and imperfect grounds? That was me.
I also relish safe change, but some change strikes fear inside me, shutting me right down. I go go go, then come to a screeching halt, leaving dust spewing in the air. It’s like I’m holding myself back. From what I do not know. Perhaps a new season is approaching and it’s not quite time to pull the trigger yet?
Therapist: “Get comfortable with change. Otherwise you go no where new…” Yes. That.
A big part of this unsettled feeling is I keep shutting myself down because this place isn’t pulling everything out of me that I have to give. My gut is in search of something else… or perhaps an addition?
Now to just realize my vision, IF it’s to be. Time will tell…
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During one of my most recent sessions, my therapist pointed to a beautiful watercolour painting on our way out the front door.
“Say that’s your water colour. What colours would you like to add? Which ones would you like to remove? YOU are the artist, so it’s up to you.”
And thank-you Brenda, I couldn’t have put it better myself!
Curious what the rest of you ‘see?’